It has been a really weird week for me. Even thou I was kinda of disappointed at my overall time at the 50k ultra run in the frozen tundra last weekend. I was actually feeling pretty hyped up by the middle of the week. I think that 50k became one of those "breakthrough" events for me. If I can do that in those elements, everything does seem a little bit easier.
But lack of sleep for 2 days last week put me in a tailspin. I tend to train in a glass bubble. Not really by choice, but necessary, because UltraRunning like IronMan can be a solitary road I must travel sometimes. So if I would have see "Rudy" the movie, I think I would have just flat out started crying in front of my wife.
Was I a little mentally burned out, maybe so, doubted myself a little bit, maybe so also. Sometimes I do wonder which choice was the right one in that fork in the road.
So Friday I needed to get some sleep, I had another normal long run weekend. The cold in the teens seemed to bother me this time. I really didn't want to run in the cold anymore. But Saturday, I put on my shoes and ran for 18 mile (3 hours) on the road. I think It is just what I needed. My mind does clear sometimes on my solitary journey and some of my self-pity had gone away. Even thou I was tired running from Saturday, I did another 19 mile (3.5 hours) on a snow packed trail on Sunday. It was tiring, I yelled out "YES, this sucked" when I was done and the best part I didn't fall on my ass the whole way.
So with mind fresh again and refocused I will try to not let the small pebbles of peoples opinions make a dent in my glass training bubble. I just need to believe in myself sometimes. So I think for now, I'm back in my "Happy Place" again.
So on a crazier not , I signed up for the Chicago Marathon, among other things, A close friend calls me up and says he wants to run it. So I said I would run the whole thing with him. My friend is a workaholic, takes medication for cholesterol, high blood pressure, and is a non-runner. But he decided he was tired of taking medication and wanted to change his life. So good for him, if he is there on race day, I will be there for every step.
So as I wait for the winter snow storm to approach this fair city, I say bring it on and I will see you out there again Mr. Snowman and Mr. coyote.